it started in january. i work part time as a dishwasher in a cafeteria. it's a much better job that you think, so put that nose back down. anyway around the holidays the cafeteria was closed several days and i did not work. this caused a cold to hit me. the dishroom at work is like a sauna and keeps cold germs at bay. this caused lack of sleep because i could not breathe. then the weather warmed up when it was not supposed to. this released pollens early, namely sagebrush, my one and only allergy and it is severe. so more lack of sleep due to my inability to breathe.
during this time my knees started aching worse than usual. which was weird because they always feel better in the winter than in the summer. and there was a strange intense numbing pain in my thigh. then my shoulders started to ache. then my feet. then in march i fell off the train. and everything went downhill from there.
i was taking allergy medicine by this time so breathing was not a problem. but now i get no sleep because of the pain. everywhere. in every joint and muscle. it never goes away. i went to the doctor. i have hashimoto's thyroiditis and rheumatoid arthritis. i have some medications but the healing process is a very slow one. mostly my body has adapted and the pain doesn't register in my brain as much any more.
thinking things over and looking back on my life this has always been there. hiding in the background. the body renews itself when it is young and when it stops it ages. and it seems to me that this renewal is what kept all these pains at bay. my body is done regenerating and is now ready to age. systems have slowed down their responsiveness and the diseases are working full tilt until i can get everything treated.
old age has claimed me and my body is broken.
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